Why our lives have to be so stupid?

Just got home a couple of hours ago and, on my way back, I got myself think (again) on the same subject. The same expression that I like to repeat to my brain every weekend, almost every weekend, the same prhase that  simply don't appear in my mind during the week, maybe I'm too busy thinking about other useless things of my life, and totally forget about the blues.
Saying shits about our lifes sound so fuckin' cliché, really bothers me a lot, you know? Everyday you see people with their lifes so fucked up that its just impossible to imagine and difficult way of living, but there always people living literally on the shit, eatin' shit, talking to shit, using shit, and I'm here, fat, white, rich and complaining about my amazingly good life. All this thoughts, actually, makes me feel a lot worst, haha.
The fact that the place we live its about to cracks up, its ready to blow and reach the humanity with all his rage, rage of billions of years acumulated, all the rage of the destruction, wars, deaths, murders, crimes and etc. We're all gonna pay for what we do to the world.


FUUUUUUCK.
I can't believe that I'm here, speeching about the end of the world, JUST LIKE one catholic, one doosh bag, one piece of shit. Well, there's no doubt that I am one piece of shit that doesn't worth one little fuck.
I've just scaped from the original subject, now there's a mess on this post and I have no idea of what I'm gonna write to cover all the crap I just wrote.


Tonight, me, Hernan Saldivar Herrero, gonna talk about some shits that makes me feel sad, sad, sad, as the Stones already said once.
Tired of this world, this human kind, this existence. Tired of reading 62 books per week and had to tolerated more disappointments at the weekend, no girls, no lovers, no hugs and kisses, just books, records, alternative movies that makes no sense at all to me, but I like to watched'em all just to look like an cult person. I like to be alone and do everything alone on my little world >> my room.
Today, everything that I do, I prefer to do alone, I prefer to be alone everywhere i go. Actually, I always loved to be an lonely person, but now, now that something hit my head and, mostly, my heart, being alone is the best thing that ever happened in my miserable and useless life. fuckyea


Ohh, I'm really tired of trying to find a way to keep writing this shit, maybe I'm not in te mood for that, or I'm not good in writing at all, yeah, i bet on these one. 

 Sorry.

see ya